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"When you have nothing to say,
set something on fire. A blurry landscape is useless."
—Richard Silken, Landscape with Fruit Rot and Millipede

soul of deer

"I confuse instinct for desire—isn't bite also touch?"
—Natalie Diaz, Wolf OR-7 from Postcolonial Love Poem

soul of deer

"You are shaking fists & trembling teeth.
I know:
you did not mean to be cruel.
That does not mean you were kind."
—Venetta Octavia, The Burning

soul of deer

"Rage, maybe rage would lift me up, make me stand, make me walk—"
—Marlon James, Black Leopard, Red Wolf

soul of deer

"all my grief says the same thing –
this isn’t how it’s supposed to be.
this isn’t how it’s supposed to be.

and the world laughs,
holds my hope by the throat,
but this is how it is."
—Fortesa Latifi, The Truth About Grief

soul of deer

"I feel most like myself
when I am washing blood off my hands
in the shower; and I hope
whatever is eating you alive does it as slowly
as possible. I know it doesn’t sound like it,
but this is a love poem, this is a love poem,
this is a love poem

until it isn’t anymore."
Trista Mateer

soul of deer

"Last year I abstained
this year I devour

without guilt
which is also an art"
—Margaret Atwood, from You Are Happy

soul of deer

"The only thing I remember from my
childhood is when you are scared make
yourself tall. I'm the tallest girl alive. I'm
the tallest knife. No throat can hold me."
—Dalton Day, the title poem of To Breathe I'm Too Thin

soul of deer

"Why does tragedy exist? Because you are full of rage. Why are you full of rage? Because you are full of grief."
—Anne Carson, Tragedy: A Curious Art Form

soul of deer

"To unchain, to set on fire, to send forth, to set more fires and unchain others – that’s the goal."
—Anne Sexton in a letter to Herbert Kohl, circa spring 1967, A Self-Portrait in Letters

soul of deer

"Stop punishing yourself for being someone with a heart. You cannot protect yourself from suffering. To live is to grieve. You are not protecting yourself by shutting yourself off from the world. You are limiting yourself,"
—Leigh Bardugo, King of Scars

soul of deer

"A girl in the shape of a monster
A monster in the shape of a girl"
Joan MacLeod, The Shape ofa Girl

soul of deer

"Wanna make a monster? Take the parts of yourself that make you uncomfortable—your weaknesses, bad thoughts, vanities, and hungers—and pretend they’re across the room. It’s too ugly to be human. It’s too ugly to be you. Children are afraid of the dark because they have nothing real to work with. Adults are afraid of themselves."
—Richard Silken, Black Telephone

soul of deer

"You don’t get to die
and be reborn the same.
You come back,
but you come back wrong.
This is the price you pay
for resurrection."
Nathaniel Orion G. K.

soul of deer

"Another rule to good storytelling is
that no one wants a half-remembered
tragedy. You must know the width of
the knife and how it ruined you,
name the organs it kissed."
—Olivia Gatwood, Addendum II To No Baptism from Life of the Party

soul of deer

"I’ve polished this anger and now it’s a knife.
I’m hardened as a hunter ornamenting his cave

with the bones of the dead. I’m so sick
of history dragging behind me."
—Cathy Linh Che, Go Forget Your Father


The Gods Show Up, Michael Kinnucan

thinking about werewolves, headspace-hotel

Yves Olade on tumblr


some cool art


note that some of these works may only touch on these themes while others have been more influential in fleshing out these feelings. my favourites are marked with an asterisk (*). those that i've been told i should check out but haven't for whatever reason are at the bottom marked with a caret (^).

some cool media

some cool media i haven't engaged with

go home?

dark sides