2023 Goals

  • be bad at things
  • do more, (over)think less
  • listen to the seasons of our body
  • journal 4x per month
  • draw/paint 2x per month
  • read one fiction book per month
  • learn to knit
  • crochet a shawl using my handspun yarn
  • make fursona ref sheet
  • two non-family trips
  • two family trips
  • go camping
  • go hiking twice
  • find a local hobby/social group
  • find a satisfying job
  • find a new apartment
  • make the coziest nest>
  • 6 other personal goals that are tmi for this website
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shrines & media

not started - mass effect (+fanworks page), tundra wolven pack, the last unicorn, magical girls, bugsnax?

animal crossing - happy home paradise pics

dragon age - writing for each game, character pages

pokemon - scarlet/violet updates

star wars - kotor II write up (and kotor graphics?), mando'ade page, fansites/works page


not started - bathroom (nail polish stuff, hair bleaching and color), crafting room, hyperlinks (like so many links)

garden - decorating!

kitchen - recipes, resources

library - music room (why i have my own file library, playlists)

the cathedral

deities - bast, khnum, artemis

more deities? - persephone, hades, aphrodite, hel, wenut, taweret, sobek

paper gods - wind, desert, winter, body

incomplete crafting/mending project list

  • repair broken mug
  • mend kiki's pants
  • resize ETID shirt
  • darn grey socks
  • remove pilling on narwhal sweater
  • Reuse candle holders
  • Resize white dress bust
  • dress shirt hole
  • reinforce jean thighs (before next winter!)

quotes that've helped my heart

“I treat myself like I would my daughter. I brush her hair, wash her laundry, tuck her in goodnight. Most importantly, I feed her. I do not punish her. I do not berate her, leave tears staining her face. I do not leave her alone. I know she deserves more. I know I deserve more.” - Michelle K.

"it is not an evil thing to look at yourself with kindness. your life was never meant to be a punishment" - vic markmann j.

"You are not damaged. You are not socially handicapped. You are young and you are learning how to live." - ask polly

"Stop punishing yourself for being someone with a heart. You cannot protect yourself from suffering. To live is to grieve. You are not protecting yourself by shutting yourself off from the world. You are limiting yourself." - Leigh Bardugo, King of Scars

my hopes for love

"I want our summers
to always be like this—a kitchen wrecked
with love, a table overflowing with baked goods
warming the already warm air. After all the pots
are stacked, the goodies cooled, and all the counters
wiped clean—let us never be rescued from this mess."
― Aimee Nezhukumatathil, 'Baked Goods' from Lucky Fish

‘Filling Spice Jars as Your Wife’ by Kai Coggin

“Love doesn't just sit there, like a stone, it has to be made, like bread; remade all the time, made new.” ― Ursula K. Le Guin, The Lathe of Heaven

to watch when you are sad

  • ouran high school host club
  • community
  • the good place

reminders for my brain

-i am safe even though i may not feel safe
-my body is the shape it needs to be to take care of me
-i am allowed to make mistakes
-i am not a broken thing in need of fixing, i am a hurt thing in need of nurturing.

things i want to do when i own a house

(or when i at least move into a new apartment)

- keep chickens
- beekeeping
- more food preserving
- produce gardening
- build a greenhouse or sunroom
- flowers painted on stuff (doors, stairs, walls, etc)
- sun catchers!
- bird feeders!
- make cute curtains
- bake cookies
- bake bread